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From Abuse to Love Part 2: Clearing Eczema

January 17, 2018
From Abuse To Love Part 2

This contribution is a continuation of the article From Abuse to Love. Written anonymously in 2016, it detailed an honest and transparent account of experiencing extensive childhood sexual abuse. The article brought a level of revelation and understanding to the traumatic experience of continuous abuse which was nothing short of groundbreaking.

This second article, From Abuse to Love Part 2: Clearing Eczema is a continuation in the series. As is normal for The Works of Serge Benhayon, it brings an expansive revelation to life and its many facets by seeing the broader landscape of an issue.

Here, our anonymous writer shares how the poison of the sexual abuse manifested itself into the intense eczema and skin conditions which no conventional or alternative methods could alleviate long term. It is worth noting that various avenues were explored fully.

It was only by bringing understanding, contemplation and thus a settlement founded on deepening responsibility that the intense skin conditions experienced for years began to shift. This article acts as a testament to the philosophies and teachings by Serge Benhayon and to the facts that:

  • Everything is connected
  • Physical symptoms are first a manifestation of an energetic imbalance
  • The body always communicates from a deeper intelligence taking into account the whole

So with no further introduction…
From Abuse to Love Part 2 ~ Clearing Eczema.

“The body is the marker of truth”
Serge Benhayon

I have heard Serge present this many times and it has always stuck with me.

My whole childhood and adult life, I suffered from a really bad skin condition known as eczema. My skin would get very dry and itchy; and very inflamed and sore. Sometimes it would bleed a lot and sometimes it would weep from the excessive scratching and become infected. The weeping liquid would also sting my skin.  There were times when I felt like a snake. I shed a lot of layers of skin. I peeled lots of skin off my body. This would also reduce my body’s temperature quite dramatically, so that the only comfort I got was to lie in the sun. The sun’s warmth definitely provided me with rest and moments of stillness. Dermatologists told me not to have long hot showers as this strips out the skin’s oils and can inflame the skin even more, but I loved my long hot showers and sometimes I would exfoliate my skin with a scrub, because I just hated how it felt and looked. I just wanted to get rid of the dry, scaly skin and getting rid of the layers of dead skin allowed the creams I applied later to soak in. It was a very debilitating condition and it affected my self-esteem and my self-worth immensely.

One treatment involved soaking a long sleeve cotton top and pants in warm water. Then I had to cover myself with a mixture of cortisone creams and ointments; then put the damp clothes on over the top, to help the ointments soak into the skin. I had to sit in this wet clothing for 10-15 minutes, which was very uncomfortable. I could do this treatment on smaller areas of my body and wrap my legs, hands or arms up with bandage cloths.  The cortisone cream would definitely reduce the inflammation and the itch but soon enough the symptoms would return.

I also tried phototherapy, which uses the best part of natural sunlight (UVB) light to help reduce the itch, calm inflammation, increase vitamin D production and ramp up bacteria-fighting systems in the skin. I saw few results from this and the treatment had the disadvantage of using up a lot of time during my working week.

I tried a series of acupuncture treatments, which included a technique called “bleeding” – wherein the practitioner pricks meridian points on the body with a needle and squeezes the blood out, to help remove excess heat from the body (or fire as it is known in the Chinese system). This was done along the length of my spine. It was a very uncomfortable and quite a painful process. I even tried courses of Chinese herbs.

These treatments provided temporary relief, but the relief was short-lived. Very soon the symptoms would return and with more intensity. It would seem as if it were clearing up, but in fact it was an endless cycle of energy needing to be released from my body in order to heal a past trauma.

I tried radical anti-allergic diets, which consisted of brown rice, broccoli or spinach and boiled fish or chicken but all that happened was that I lost a great deal of weight, felt extremely frail and my skin didn’t get any better.

I saw a kinesiologist once about the severe dryness of my skin. This modality is based on ‘muscle testing’. “Its basic notion is that every organ dysfunction is accompanied by a specific muscle weakness, which enables diseases to be diagnosed through muscle-testing procedures.” (Stephen Barrett, M.D)

The practitioner would ask me to hold one arm out straight and she would press on it, as she asked my body a series of questions. If my arm held firmly, then the answer was “yes”, but if my arm dropped as a result of her touch, as she asked the question, then the answer was “no”. She asked my body how many fish oil capsules it needed daily to help the dryness in my skin. My arm held strong over and over again until the count ended up being about 25 capsules a day. Then my arm weakened, which meant that 25 was the correct number needed. Although I felt this was excessive, I followed her recommendation, along with other supplements, but didn’t find any improvement in my condition at all.

I went to an allergist clinic and got tested for various food chemicals, animal fur, dust and different pollens and moulds. I was reactive to a lot of these and then went on a long course of weekly dust mite and animal fur injections to help build my immunity to these allergens. Again, no change.

I even met a mad crystal healer who promised to put together a series of crystals that I could place under my bed and each night they would be healing me as I lay on top of them. I spent hundreds of dollars purchasing these big round crystal balls, but nothing changed for me.

So, as you can see, I really tried hard to find a solution for my condition, but nothing helped me permanently. There were fleeting periods of some relief, when I felt hopeful, but the symptoms just came back over and over again. Eventually, I realised that the sexual abuse I had experienced in my childhood was something I could no longer ignore. My body was screaming for help. I could feel the energetic and emotional poison from this abuse and I knew that it needed to be healed. I had been searching for solutions outside of myself, when the answers had always been inside my body.

Once I found Universal Medicine, my whole understanding of healing and the process by which the body heals, became a lot clearer. It became easier for me to accept my condition. Instead of seeing my skin as my enemy, I came to understand it was my body’s way of showing me what was true for me and what was not true.  It was also my body’s way of showing me that there was a dis-ease in my body. Something was not right.

I was determined to get better and help myself heal this very uncomfortable skin condition. At first, as I embarked on committing to looking after myself, I made simple changes: changes to my sleeping patterns and diet.  I started with my diet, eliminating foods, which I could feel did not work for me anymore, including obvious toxins like coffee and alcohol. With these changes, I slept better and my skin wouldn’t break out as much. This did not fix my eczema, however, and whilst things improved, my skin would still break out badly from time to time and become very itchy.

It was not until I attended several presentations and various healing courses by Serge Benhayon, that the most profound changes to my condition occurred. During the healing courses especially, I was able to feel that all of the choices from my past and all my unresolved hurts were locked in my body, desperately wanting to be released and healed. I knew I had found a true place of healing with Universal Medicine and with Serge Benhayon. I re-connected to the fact that is everything is about the quality of the energy I choose to align to in any one moment.

In time, I came to the understanding that my childhood sexual abuse was definitely a major cause of why I had such bad eczema. The origins of the word ‘eczema’ are interesting and it is significant that this word stems from ‘something thrown out by heat’: 1753, from Greek ekzema, literally “something thrown out by heat,” from ekzein “to boil out,” from ek “out”+ zema “boiling,” from zein “to boil,” ‘Eczema’ is said to have been the name given by ancient physicians to “any fiery pustule on the skin.”

No matter how good my diet was, there was more to look at than just the physical symptoms of why my eczema was still so bad. Every night I experienced a very uncomfortable feeling in my body that I would try to scratch out in my sleep. The restlessness, the constant movement, scratching and unsettlement in my body was heightened at night time, especially when I wanted to go to sleep but couldn’t. The one time and place where I needed to rest deeply and my body did the complete opposite! Sometimes I would sit up in my bed, just squeezing my hands tightly and rock my body backwards and forwards to try and relieve this restless feeling. Some nights I would just toss and turn and scratch so much that I had blood on the bedsheets and so much dead skin in my bed, that it felt like the bed was full of coconut flakes or heaps of sand. In the morning, I would brush it all on to the floor and this became a constant habit: brushing the bed to see how much I had shed at night. Fortunately, as the years passed this became less and less.

It was in a Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 2 course that I connected to the poison that was in my body from my childhood abuse. This healing course is directly focused on childhood imprints left in our bodies. When the practitioner was working on the area of the body related to ages 5 to 13, I could feel the poison coursing through my body like acid. Interestingly, these were the very same years that I suffered from sexual abuse. A certain part of my body was so tight, that the release of the poison felt sickening, like “something boiling out,” from my body.

Serge came over to me and put his hands on my shoulders. He spoke with authority and understanding. He told me to feel the poison and to let it go, but to know that this was not who I am. His warm hands felt so supportive on my shoulders. I felt so held in the space with love. I felt safe for the very first time in my life: safe to let myself be truly seen, to be truly vulnerable and raw. I felt so supported and not judged by Serge and my practitioner that it was possible for me to let the poison go.

Huge amounts of sadness came up. It was real.  I could not escape what had happened in my childhood any longer. Before this course, I had never let myself feel this sadness. These feelings were buried and my body was calling out for attention and healing. I could feel the horrible poison this experience had left in my body. It was terrible, and I cried and cried as I released this negative imprint from my body. I could feel so much: the guilt I had around what had happened; the deep remorse that deep down I knew I had allowed this experience to happen.

As expressed in my previous blog From Abuse to Love , the realisation I had is that as a child I craved attention from my parents and because this attention was not forthcoming, I sought it elsewhere. My next-door neighbour was the easiest place to find this form of attention.  At the expense of my body I allowed the sexual abuse to continue for many years.

I could feel that I had allowed this poison into my body and knew that I would never inflict this onto another. I could feel how poisonous it was not to speak up and how, as a child, I had held back the truth. I could feel how absolutely beautiful I am under all this hurt and pain. My essence was still there and how much I had missed this feeling!

I had been holding onto this poison for 24 years and finally as an adult, I had found a healing modality in Universal Medicine that was assisting me to heal this scar. This childhood experience didn’t mean I was a terrible person.  It didn’t mean I was unworthy or dirty. This healing session was showing me how these negative imprints and holding onto what is not true or loving in my body is just pure poison. The feeling of coursing acid subsided and I was graced with humility, as I came back to my beautiful self, feeling lighter, clearer and a lot more settled within myself.

Could this experience that was locked in my body all this time, taint how I related to the world? How I was with other people and relationships? How I was with myself and how I felt about myself? And how this would affect my behaviours in my adult life?

The energy that was in my body was definitely affecting the choices I was making in my life. I protected myself by shutting down, not truly opening up to people. I didn’t trust myself, let alone other people and I felt very insecure when I was by myself. This was the beginning for me of starting to unravel the mess my body was in as a result of my past choices, but how easy it was to come back from them!

My skin isn’t perfect today, but it definitely is nowhere near as badly inflamed as it used to be and there is no doubt that since that healing session and others, my skin has recovered remarkably. I used to look like a burns victim and my body still bears the scars and pigmentation from the years of scratching. The calluses left on my hands, arms and legs are now reminders of how much more tender and delicate I can be with my body.

The restlessness from my unresolved past, that once was so overwhelming in my body, has completely gone. In a healing session, Natalie Benhayon used sacred esoteric healing to clear the stagnant energy sitting around my hip bones.  Natalie confirmed that the guilt that I had around this experience was gone. I no longer carried this in my body.

I have always been very highly strung and anxious. Today, no one would notice that about me. The need to scratch my skin to relieve the tension I feel in my body has lessened dramatically. Today I know, that if I scratch in my sleep, it is a reflection of how I have lived during the day and that I need to identify the cause:

  • Is there something in my day that I have left unresolved?
  • Did I eat appropriately before bedtime?
  • Have I absorbed something that I need to nominate and deal with?
  • Did I observe my winding down routine to complete my day?
  • Or is poison still releasing from my body?

Taking the steps to being responsible for my choices, for my reactions and my behaviours have all been part of my healing from abuse. Choosing to live with this awareness brings so much honesty to my body and I appreciate my body’s simple wisdom every day. I’m finding now that certain choices can be like choosing abuse, like eating something I already know does not agree with my body, but doing it anyway, is an example of my choosing abuse, which is the same as an unloving choice.

To take this to a deeper level, I know it is the reaction or energy that I have called in, that then makes me go for a particular food. I have learnt to stop and feel what is going on in my body, before I make an unloving food choice, which only dulls or dismisses the message my body is sharing with me. I don’t always get it right, but it’s a process of learning to stop and nominate my reactions first and deal with what energy I am in. Once I nominate it and I can put two and two together, then I can renounce the behaviour or pattern that is no longer serving me. I have also learned not to judge myself for my choices and behaviours, but just to accept where I am at.

My beauty is deep within me; it is not only in my outside appearance, but from the connection I hold within my body. My skin is a beautiful reflection to me of when I am stressed and not dealing with things or when I am more content within myself and responding to life with less emotion and reaction.  Connecting to my Stillness with the help of Esoteric Yoga, I have been able to feel my inner beauty and appreciate this. It is a practice I am always learning to deepen and hold throughout my daily routine in everything I do and in every movement I make. I have noticed that with more stillness in my body, I am less reactive; my body is less reactive to certain allergens, and foods.

I am forever grateful for the support I have received from my practitioners at Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, because I have learnt that it is the way I live in every moment, with conscious presence and with energetic integrity, which will determine my experience. I know now that abuse is simply ‘not Love’ and the body is the marker of this simple truth.

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138 Comments

  • Reply leigh matson January 18, 2018 at 12:33 am

    This couldn’t be a better testimonial for the opening quote “The body is the marker of truth” Thank you for sharing this Anon.

  • Reply Rebecca January 18, 2018 at 1:16 am

    Amazing – we can walk miles seeking an external cure to our issues but what you so beautifully share is the fact we can find true healing within, which doesn’t automatically make all our symptoms disappear, thought it does produce incredible results – but more than simply a cure it delivers understanding and responsibility for the way we are living and the energetic imprints we create and carry.

  • Reply hm January 18, 2018 at 2:32 am

    This is such a huge shift in the body and in incredible sharing. Wow – there are so many treatments out there that ‘manage’ eczema – but this only puts a band-aid on what is truly going on. I love the perspective of skin being a reflection and not the problem – this changes the whole way we look at illness.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 27, 2018 at 12:38 am

      There is a world of difference between looking at what is presented by the body as ‘the enemy’ which we have to fight or manage, to in contrast working with our body as ‘an ally’ recognising the deeply loving opportunity to deepen our awareness and relationship with life.

  • Reply Fiona Pierce January 18, 2018 at 3:09 am

    Thank you very much for sharing the healing realisation that you had around what was behind your eczema and the true support you had with this and with being able to let it go. Feeling genuinely seen, supported and not judged in the slightest is very powerful and Serge Benhayon offers this unconditionally.

  • Reply Katerina Nikolaidis January 18, 2018 at 4:30 am

    This was profound to read. When we open up to the possibility that the physical ailments we carry have a greater energetic cause first, the healing that occurs takes us to a deeper understanding of and connection with ourselves. With the support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine any shame or judgement we have of ourselves we can drop – if we want to – because of the love and understanding we are held in, always seeing us for the essence of who we truly are and not for the disease or ailment that we carry. We realise that this is the love and understanding we can give to ourselves.

    • Reply Rowena Stewart January 27, 2018 at 7:58 am

      Very true Katerina. What we are offered through the work of Serge Benhayon is the opportunity to reclaim our ability to seek the resolutions to our ills within us, so we can learn how to deeply love the skin we are in from the inside out. The practical tools we are provided with enable us take charge of the quality of our daily choices, the effects of which constantly play out in our bodies all day long.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh February 10, 2018 at 8:39 pm

      We can get so caught up and consumed with the issues we perceive in life. The fundamental support offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to recognise and know ourselves in our true essence – stupendous multidimensional beings inherently of the same qualities reflected by God – and to start understanding how the issues and ailments we face in this light, reflecting the ways that we have not been living in accordance to this essence. Instead of being at the effect of and fighting the issues presented, we can embrace the gift of reflection offered and work with it to heal, deepen, unfold and expand all that we are.

  • Reply Nicola Lessing January 18, 2018 at 5:10 am

    Thank you Anon – this is very profound and yet so simple in many ways. The answers are always within when we listen to our bodies.

  • Reply Nicola Lessing January 18, 2018 at 5:16 am

    I have done the Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 2 course you mention several times and seen many hundreds of people experience tremendous healing and releases as you have described. It seems every single one of us has childhood issues to release and heal at a stage in our development, and an immense increase in awareness, health and vitality on offer when we let them go and take a step back towards our essence.

  • Reply Jennifer Smith January 18, 2018 at 5:16 am

    The important thing that I have taken away from this very beautiful article is abuse is anything that is not love. an that it begins with ourselves.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 28, 2018 at 6:54 pm

      This is such a profound realisation Jennifer just on its own. When we really get that the smallest departure from the expression of absolute love is abuse, we have the answer to the enormity of the mess humanity is in. It is so very simple really underneath the surface complication that we keep blinding ourselves with.

  • Reply Leigh Strack January 18, 2018 at 5:49 am

    A valuable article that clearly shows that the greatest support to our bodies is how we live in it.

    • Reply Matilda Bathurst January 23, 2018 at 11:35 pm

      It’s so simple isn’t it. The quality with which we move, feed, rest, hydrate and care for our bodies is the foundation for how we experience life, ourselves and each other.

  • Reply Leigh Strack January 18, 2018 at 5:57 am

    If it was eating and exercise alone that gave our body the true support it needs there would not be the rate of illness in our world that we now experience, as many practice this. However there is little to no respect and true understanding of our bodies, for if there was we would question many aspects of the current paradigm of exercise and food intake. We would consider that whilst our bodies are all the same, what makes each of us tick is different. And as is shared here, our past experiences and hurts are stored in our body until they are resolved and let go of. This energetic aspect is by far a very important aspect to true health, vitality and wellbeing.

  • Reply Gabriele Conrad January 18, 2018 at 6:05 am

    Thank you for sharing your experience of Esoteric Healing and eczema so candidly; there is no doubt that our physical symptoms are preceded by energy, that physicality comes second to the energy that is coursing through the body, that everything is energy before it manifests as tangible matter. As long as we deny the fact, we are at the mercy of chasing the symptoms rather than addressing the root cause of our ills.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 20, 2018 at 3:06 am

      Beautifully said Gabriele. And this fact is so well shown by the long list of therapies and strategies anonymous employed none of which made a lasting impact. And then with the support of Universal Medicine profound changes started to come about through beginning to address the deeper energetic dynamics at play.

  • Reply Gill Randall January 18, 2018 at 6:12 am

    What phenomenal journey of learning and healing your body has had. It is such a vivid account that makes such sense of how the body and mind are so interlinked, and how the body has still been reacting from all the abuse from childhood. The power of Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine healing modalities are second to none.

  • Reply Sarah Flenley January 18, 2018 at 6:16 am

    Another stunning expose and insight into how our body holds and shares trauma with us, and how working with the energetic reasons behind a symptom can support us to truly heal. I was listening to a podcast the other day and a person who had been sexually abused as young child was sharing his experience. He shared that as the priest started to abuse him, he disassociated from himself – like he ‘left the building’ and went somewhere else whilst the act was occurring. What I loved about what you wrote is that Serge Benhayon held the space for you and you went there, to finally feel safe enough to feel what had actually happened to you and then heal the hurts from there. And that is when true and lasting healing can occur. Inspiring.

  • Reply Andrew Mooney January 18, 2018 at 7:20 am

    This is such a ground breaking testimony and blog about medicine – that unless we deal with the underlying energetic disharmony in our body and our being, we are not dealing with the underlying issue. We can treat physical symptoms and in some cases even make them go away with the wonders of modern medicine, but a full healing is much deeper and involves the being as well as the physical body.

  • Reply jennym January 18, 2018 at 7:36 am

    What strikes me in reading this blog is how the relationship with your body and self is so much more tender and compassionate, combined with an honesty that clears the path for the guilt to dissolve.

  • Reply Monica Gillooly January 18, 2018 at 9:34 am

    This is such an amazing sharing Anonymous, thank you. To feel the steps you’ve taken and your willingness to get underneath all that has been happening to you is very inspiring. Our bodies are indeed the markers of all truth, and I especially love the ease you’ve come to where you see how your body is as a reflection of your day. Thank you for sharing your story.

    • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 19, 2018 at 6:48 am

      This is a very powerful principle – there is such a thing as energy, that energy has a configuration, that configuration can be dissolved through awareness and then the outward issue, like eczema, resolves itself.

      • Reply Vicky Cooke February 17, 2018 at 7:58 am

        I love what you have expressed here Christoph and how you have summarised. You are asking us to really stop and take stock that there IS such a thing as energy, it has a configuration and ill configurations can be easily truly healed and dissolved. Science stop what you are doing and just be with this .. we have much to learn .. and it costs nothing!

    • Reply Jonathan Stewart January 20, 2018 at 6:19 am

      Yes, the commitment and willingness of Anonymous to get to the source of her condition is truly inspiring.

  • Reply Ingrid Ward January 18, 2018 at 2:59 pm

    What an incredibly inspirational testimonial not only to the power of the Universal Medicine modalities but to your commitment to your own healing. It demonstrates so clearly that our body holds the truth of our lived experience and that it will let us know in many different ways that it cannot continue to hold onto the pain, the sadness, the anger etc, and so begins to release it; in your case through your skin. This is such a wonderful example of the fact that we do not have to carry our hurts forever, that there is way to release them so allowing our body the space to heal.

    • Reply Simon Williams January 22, 2018 at 4:01 pm

      Love the inspiration Ingrid – we do not have to carry our hurts forever, and knowing that our bodies have all the answers, and Serge and the Universal Medicine team can help with unlocking that is the gold we have all been looking for.

  • Reply Mary Adler January 18, 2018 at 3:35 pm

    A beautiful understanding that illness, disease and adverse conditions we experience is the body’s way of releasing the ill energy from our physical body. Understanding this is a healing in itself and a principle teaching shared by Serge Benhayon.

  • Reply James Nicholson January 18, 2018 at 4:35 pm

    A great sharing of how there is so much more at play than purely trying to make the body function. What I love is when you say ‘It became easier for me to accept my condition. Instead of seeing my skin as my enemy, I came to understand it was my body’s way of showing me what was true for me and what was not true.’ The body is constantly giving us signs to support us to return to living harmoniously with it and everyone – the question is are we willing to listen and then take responsibility for all our choices?

    • Reply Nico van Haastrecht January 19, 2018 at 2:43 pm

      Actually what you say James is that instead we see out body as annoying because of the way it communicates with us with illness and disease, we have to fall in love with it and appreciate the messages it is giving us. These messages from the body, when attentively listened to, will bring us a life of healing in our way back to the love we all come from and all are so desperately looking for.

  • Reply Sue Queenborough January 18, 2018 at 4:41 pm

    Thankyou for your amazing and insightful sharing of your journey back to being who you truly are. Treating symptoms alone never gets to the root cause. I spent over twenty years using various conventional and alternative so-called healing methods but none got to the cause or have supported me as much as the Esoteric healing modalities.

  • Reply Jonathan Stewart January 18, 2018 at 4:51 pm

    Thank you Anonymous for this powerful and personal sharing. This is a truly profound example and testament to the both the fact that underlying illness and disease is an energetic cause and to the true healing that is achieved through the Esoteric Healing Modalities presented by Serge Benhayon.

  • Reply Vanessa mchardy January 18, 2018 at 5:33 pm

    This gives me so much understanding to the condition and is so practical for how to look at the choices we make and our bodies way of showing us we are out of sync. Energy first.

  • Reply Sandra Vicary January 18, 2018 at 6:38 pm

    What a remarkable story of how our physical and emotional symptoms are so directly interconnected. By being open and willing to look more deeply at the underlying cause, and to feel the depth of pain that has been so long buried within us we have the ability to remove such deeply held energetic imprints from our bodies.

  • Reply rosanna bianchini January 18, 2018 at 8:50 pm

    Wow. what more could we need than this blog to realise the way the body stores and responds to every choice we make, and a hugely powerful testament that abuse can range from the extremes of anon’s childhood abuse to the choice of food and the quality of wind down at the end of the day. Fabulous article.

  • Reply Fumiyo Egashira January 18, 2018 at 10:33 pm

    It is amazing – even though we keep shedding our skin and every cell of our body keeps regenerating, the same imbalance keeps returning as long as the energetic root cause gets addressed and removed.

  • Reply Rebecca January 18, 2018 at 10:51 pm

    The energy we carry as imprints in the body can be very tangible when we give ourselves the space to feel them – sometimes we can be so busy in life, caught up in distractions and racy business that we can’t, or don’t choose, to feel what is really sitting in our body. I have found the at the Universal Medicine therapies are the only thing that have ever allowed me to truly stop, feel and let go of the imprints I carry with me that hinder me from being all of who I am

  • Reply Michael Brown January 19, 2018 at 6:20 am

    The difference between relief and true healing is astounding, and what can be achieved through true healing is even more astounding.

  • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 19, 2018 at 6:46 am

    Taking a debilitating ailment as a signal that something needs to be resolved from our past Is probably a known concept in psychology but I wonder how rare this actual resolution of the past, not just managing of the past is.

  • Reply Nico van Haastrecht January 19, 2018 at 2:37 pm

    How remarkable it is, when after 24 years of trying to find a solution and a cure, you found true healing Anon. Simply by connecting with your body and with that with all the hurt but wisdom it holds too, that then can be accessed and dealt with.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 23, 2018 at 1:43 am

      How empowering would it be if right from the beginning everyone would receive the same support offered by Universal Medicine to connect deeply with your body and what is being exposed through the symptoms, as well as deepen your understanding and awareness of how to start to turn things round and support yourself in your recovery.

  • Reply sue queenborough January 19, 2018 at 4:54 pm

    ““The body is the marker of truth”
    Serge Benhayon I have heard Serge present this many times and it has always stuck with me.” me too. The more aware I become of my body – which i tried to numb for years – the more appreciation i feel that we do have a body that tells us truth. What we do with that truth is a choice we then make.

  • Reply Stephanie Stevenson January 19, 2018 at 5:49 pm

    A priceless and profound testimony to Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine Healing Modalities.
    Thank you Anonymous for the depth of raw honesty shared so openly in this writing.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 20, 2018 at 2:40 am

    It is amazing how much we can deepen our awareness and understanding about ourselves, life, the multidimensionality we are a part of, and so much more through paying attention to and deepening our relationship with our bodies. And no therapies like the Universal Medicine modalities to support you in this, with or without symptoms which alert you to the expansion available.

  • Reply Rebecca January 20, 2018 at 5:25 am

    We can find so much more understanding of life when we apply the energetic factor to it, we are no longer the victims of life just happening to us.

    • Reply Amparo Lorente Cháfer January 21, 2018 at 4:28 pm

      ‘… we are no longer the victims of life just happening to us’ That’s key Rebecca. When we choose to play the victim role we are avoiding our part of responsibility, but in that choice we are avoiding too the healing of what we lived. Honesty is the door to that healing.

    • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 23, 2018 at 6:02 am

      Yes, it gives us choices we weren’t consciously aware of before.

  • Reply Jonathan Stewart January 20, 2018 at 6:16 am

    his is an extraordinary story you share here, Anonymous, that is both a moving and powerful testament to your integrity and commitment to truly heal and to the truth of the philosophy and the healing modalities that Serge Benhayon presents.

    • Reply Matilda Bathurst January 23, 2018 at 11:32 pm

      I agree, Jonathan, this article has deepened my respect and reverence for our bodies and the wisdom and teaching they offer… we simply have to listen and respond.

  • Reply Jonathan Stewart January 20, 2018 at 6:19 am

    This is an extraordinary story you share here, Anonymous, that is both a moving and powerful testament to your integrity and commitment to truly heal and to the truth of the philosophy and the healing modalities that Serge Benhayon presents.

  • Reply Rebecca Wingrave January 20, 2018 at 7:04 am

    Anonymous, thank you for sharing your experience of abuse and how this was held in your body, the Universal Medicine healing modalities are amazing and for me after years of trying many alternative therapies have been the only modalities that have truly healed and have inspired me to make much more loving choices.

  • Reply sue queenborough January 20, 2018 at 4:35 pm

    i worked for a while on a ‘skin’ ward when nursing. We gave patients many topical treatments, such as you describe. However as they were all about treating symptoms, the root cause was never addressed. We have such wonderful modalities with Universal Medicine that can get to the root cause that allow us to now truly heal from the most tricky of illnesses.

  • Reply Rachel Murtagh January 20, 2018 at 6:20 pm

    Wow, with your sharing you absolutely prove that, ‘Physical symptoms are first a manifestation of an energetic imbalance.’ You show that to truly heal we need to get underneath our emotional reactions or trauma that build to that imbalance occurring in the first place.

  • Reply Alison Valentine January 21, 2018 at 4:17 am

    What you show Anon is the power of true healing, where we are able to address the underlying causes to our illnesses by being able to see the responsibility we have in making choices that led to the illness. Esoteric Healing level 2 is unique in the way it looks at and releases childhood imprints from the body, and as you have shown how harming it is if they are left in the body and we don’t fully heal them.

  • Reply Aimee Edmonds January 21, 2018 at 4:46 am

    Wow this was very powerful to read, thank you Anon for every detail you shared. I moved to a large city in another country and I have never seen so many people with eczema in my life. What you have shared gives me a greater understanding of what is happening underneath and what is interesting is that many say the sun actually brings it out even more…. I feel it is the light that brings the poison/abuse to the surface to be seen for what it is.

  • Reply Doug Valentine January 21, 2018 at 7:19 pm

    This is gold. So few of us realise that all illness and disease are our own creations by how we choose to live.

  • Reply Rebecca Wingrave January 21, 2018 at 9:20 pm

    Anonymous, I can feel the absolute truth of this; ‘Physical symptoms are first a manifestation of an energetic imbalance’, I used to suffer with many physical ailments such as IBS, once I started listening to my body, eating what felt right for me and also taking care of myself and feeling confident in myself I now no longer have these symptoms.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 21, 2018 at 9:55 pm

    What amazing proof that there is an energetic dynamic at play behind physical issues and without addressing such underlying causes we will never start to truly make a difference.

  • Reply Jill Steiner January 22, 2018 at 7:21 am

    A beautiful sharing thank you Anon, when we come to an understanding of how our illness and diseases are all tied up with the energy held in our bodies of our past hurts and choices we then have the opportunity to bring healing to our bodies.

  • Reply Vanessa mchardy January 22, 2018 at 3:02 pm

    It amazes me how we have arrived at a place where we treat the mind separate from the body and the body seoetste from the mind as if they are completely separate entries – totally bizarre. Your sharing shows once again that this really is not the case.

  • Reply Simon Williams January 22, 2018 at 3:57 pm

    Its incredible the journey we can go on to get to truth… so many purveyors promising this and that but with very little that actually takes you all the way there. That is not to disrespect the search, because ultimately it is what helped you find the Truth in Universal Medicine, but it does show how important this work is and how letting people know about it is so important.

  • Reply Mary January 22, 2018 at 5:29 pm

    This is a very powerful testimony to the work of Serge Benhayon and the practitioners of Universal Medicine. You tried the ‘band aids’ or solutions which didn’t improve or clear your condition. Whereas Universal medicine workshop and courses supported you to let go of a very traumatic experience and with the letting go find a settlement in your body.

  • Reply Gill Randall January 22, 2018 at 6:22 pm

    How deeply healing is this and so different to anything else on offer. When you get physical confirmation, this is very powerful to feel.

  • Reply Alison Valentine January 23, 2018 at 1:23 am

    What you show here is that there is so much more going on in the body than just the physical symptoms of eczema that have been with you for most of your life. When we are able to look at the energetic imbalances that occur in our body as being the start of our illnesses and diseases, we will begin to change the course of western medicine, by having a greater understanding of how emotional issues poison the body and do much more harm to us than we willing to accept.

  • Reply Mary January 23, 2018 at 2:34 am

    It seems to me from what you are saying
    “I had been searching for solutions outside of myself, when the answers had always been inside my body.”
    That our bodies holds the condition and the answer if we were to just stopped and give our bodies the opportunity to communicate with us. How many of us though are rushing through our day trying to keep up with the pressures of work, family life etc. So how many of us stop to listen to our bodies or, do we drown out the background noise by eating and drinking as a way to numb the conversation that we could otherwise be having. What you have healed within your self anonymous is quite remarkable and is a marker for everyone to show that the body can be healed.

  • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 23, 2018 at 6:01 am

    Quite a few people have debilitating physical ailments like substantial eczema or period pain and live a seemingly normal life. Others are moving towards dementia or Alzheimers but are seemingly still coping, still others have major illnesses like cancer or multiple sclerosis in their early stages and also look normal. There is clearly a lot going on under the immediately visible surface.

  • Reply Elizabeth Dolan January 23, 2018 at 12:29 pm

    What a beautiful unfolding of the gorgeous being that you are. No skin condition or any other condition can take away the magnificance of who we are.

  • Reply HM January 23, 2018 at 8:04 pm

    There is much deeper levels of healing that are offered to us here – so much more than a topical cream or a way to cope – but actually healing our hurts to support our bodies to naturally clear themselves. This sharing is an amazing before and after on the power of true healing and being open to take responsibility for our choices.

  • Reply Michael Brown January 23, 2018 at 8:07 pm

    What an ease it is to heal when we look at the energetic roots of the illness.

  • Reply Matilda Bathurst January 23, 2018 at 11:30 pm

    This is an inspiring and very beautiful testimony to the power of our bodies and our ability to heal abuse. I am touched by the grace with which you talk about your skin now and the honour and respect you afford your body… thank you very much for sharing your experiences.

  • Reply Willem Plandsoen January 24, 2018 at 3:27 pm

    Wow impressive story. It is a clear showcase that disease all comes down to energetic causes, and that taking symptoms away is not the answer.

  • Reply Mary January 24, 2018 at 4:23 pm

    Having studied the Universal Medicine modalities and participated in the workshops which to me are all designed to understand our bodies are energy. Yes there is the physical body but it is energy that runs the body. So it makes sense to me that the body can have an energetic imbalance. I would say most of society leads quite stressful lives and this has an impact on our bodies, they become drained of our natural vitality. We seem to override this leaking of energy from our bodies by consuming energy drinks, the problem with that is that these energy drinks are a ‘false’ energy and so we keep drinking them to give us the ‘false’ energy without dealing with the fact that we now have an energetic imbalance in our bodies. To me it doesn’t make sense any more to just address the outward physical symptoms without considering the energetic state of the body surely this only give us half of the picture?

  • Reply Rowena Stewart January 24, 2018 at 5:34 pm

    Thank you. A powerful testimony that exposes the fact that, until we make the effort to look within our selves for the causes of our dis-ease as opposed to attempting to eliminate a myriad of external causes, these debilitating conditions cannot and will not heal. Our bodies are the marker of truth and communicate their messages from the highest point of intelligence. Serge Benhayon is a master at understanding this science and empowering people to read, feel, appreciate and release these messages and hence relieve the body of the burden it has been carrying for us. The more we are encouraged to look within and heal our inner environment, the more the quality of our bodily health can guide us to restore genuine harmony in all aspects of our lives. You are living proof of the value and effectiveness of this immensely crucial approach to health.

  • Reply vanessa mchardy January 24, 2018 at 5:45 pm

    It is continually extraordinary how much our bodies communicate what it is we wish to bury and hide from ourselves. We go to great lengths for this to be so. But yet our body does not judge us it simply keeps communicating, and when we listen as you so clearly have and then go about making sensible changes to support your body, the body heals. Magic.

  • Reply Michael Brown January 24, 2018 at 8:13 pm

    It’s so cool to look at the origins of words and see the relationship we have with them today, and like in this case, often I find that it explains exactly what it going on without any complication.

  • Reply Sylvia January 24, 2018 at 11:43 pm

    This sharing is a great example of how our body issues, signals, diseases or illnesses are related to something deeper to look at.
    The outer symptom is just the outer confirmation of something not in harmony in the body.
    It is great to hear that you find this true healing and could let go the past by releasing that energy out the body.
    I also some big healings with the Esotheric Therapies.

  • Reply Mary January 25, 2018 at 4:09 pm

    Wow to have suffered such a skin condition for so long trying everything to no avail must have been extremely tough for you. It is amazing what can be truly healed when we let go of our pain and inner turmoil and bring a settlement to our bodies.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 25, 2018 at 7:52 pm

    It is wonderful to be supported, as does Universal Medicine through its teachings and every modality, to unravel the dynamics that lead to issues you are facing so that you can start to take responsibility for your own healing in an empowered way.

  • Reply Gill Randall January 26, 2018 at 4:27 am

    What an amazing modality that supported you to go to a place deeper than you had ever gone before. You were held with so much love as you cleared the long held abuse in your body, and it continues to clear when we allow it. It is quite extraordinary what the body feels when we hold onto the poison and how the body responds when we let it go.

  • Reply Carmel Reid January 26, 2018 at 6:32 pm

    Sometimes we have no idea how much our past hurts affect our lives now, and how we learned to survive, behaviours we adopted as children continue into our adult life. How great then, to have an opportunity through Sacred Esoteric Healing sessions and courses to understand these hurts and to let them go. For me it was boarding school and I developed a hard shell that simply didn’t let any love in, which led to a miserable long-term relationship ending in divorce. Now I have an opportunity to start again and let love in for the rest of my life.

  • Reply Leigh Matson January 26, 2018 at 7:45 pm

    Sacred Esoteric Healing 2 I used to relate to as one of the ‘heavier’ courses. But only so as it was my body that was heavy with past imprints and choices in childhood. The last one I attended was not heavy at all and I remember being on the session table feeling the space in my body, free of the imprints, not 100% but compared to the years before, wow.

  • Reply Michael Brown January 26, 2018 at 8:27 pm

    What this says to me is that an openness to see what’s there is already half the healing process done.

  • Reply Sarah Flenley January 27, 2018 at 6:35 am

    “The restlessness from my unresolved past, that once was so overwhelming in my body, has completely gone. ” Another living miracle from the power of Universal Medicine therapies and your willingness to let it go.

  • Reply Sandra Vicary January 27, 2018 at 7:30 am

    We generally assosciate poison in our bodies with something we have ingested that is chemically toxic, and quite rightly so. However to consider that we can be poisoned by an energy is something that most of us would never even have thought about. But this is a very real occurrence. Any energy that we let into our bodies that is not love, will poison and therefore harm us energetically, and the impact of it can last for lifetimes if not dealt with in an appropriate way, with the true support that it requires to clear it out of the body. The Universal Medicine therapies are exactly what are needed to support such a process and can and do assist anyone to bring them to a true healing.

  • Reply Rebecca January 27, 2018 at 7:24 pm

    We can become so caught in our illnesses, diseases and physical issues, in getting different treatments and looking for a cure – we can become so focused and identified by the condition that we don’t consider how we are and the way we have been living that could be contributing – not just obvious lifestyle choices – what we eat or how much we exercise – there is more that our way of life contributes to how we are.

    • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 29, 2018 at 7:35 am

      It is very important that we look for a cure but perhaps equally important or sometimes more important to look for a cause and to deal with that cause.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 27, 2018 at 9:45 pm

    The Universe is not random. There is always a very precise order at play. If we are facing any issue in life, there is irrefutably a dynamic at play which has disturbed the otherwise harmonious flow of the Universe. And our bodies are a great marker of truth, alerting us to much about out choices that needs attention.

  • Reply Stephanie Stevenson January 27, 2018 at 11:38 pm

    Anonymous, I have just spent time re-read through both part 1 and part 2 and am humbled and inspired by the deep understanding and awareness you have brought to the ‘contract of abuse’ between individuals. What an incredible gift you bring to the world with this personal accounts of abuse and a return to love. Thank you..

  • Reply HM January 28, 2018 at 4:58 am

    Wow it is incredible to read the lengths you went to in order to seek relief of your symptoms. But what you offer here is to question the whole principle of seeking relief – and that healing is so much more than this. It is a relationship with our bodies where we are willing to look at what is behind any ailment – what are the choices we have made and what have we lived in order to bring an ailment on. So humbling and so powerful in the scale of healing.

  • Reply Stephanie Stevenson January 28, 2018 at 5:59 am

    After many years of hearing Serge Benhayon say ‘the body is the marker of all truth and everything is energy and everything is because of energy’. I am now more aware of just what this means with the quality in the way we move and live. There will come a time when Medical system will incorporate an understanding of the energy behind various illnesses and diseases and then true healing will be the new-normal.

  • Reply Shami January 28, 2018 at 5:29 pm

    Gosh, this is a very beautiful piece of writing. Thank you so much for sharing with an incredible open heart, what you have experienced in and throughout your journey from abuse to love.

  • Reply Susan Green January 29, 2018 at 6:42 am

    An amazing example of true healing, the power of the esoteric healing modalities and being honest with what the body is showing us.

  • Reply Christoph Schnelle January 29, 2018 at 7:34 am

    In my experience we absorb a lot from the outside, including from other people and we may also carry unresolved hurts but there is also a permanent clearing process going on and we can very much assist that clearing process and simplify it as this blog shows.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart January 29, 2018 at 3:55 pm

    “I have learnt that it is the way I live in every moment, with conscious presence and with energetic integrity, which will determine my experience.” The miracle that Serge Benhayon offers us so generously, to reclaim the power to live life in harmony with our bodies, so that they no longer need to scream for help.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart January 30, 2018 at 5:41 pm

    It is an enormous and ground breaking shift to make in realising that you are not victim to your body, your skin or your illness, but very much in command of our life., your health and inner well being. This turns so many paradigms on their heads, because if you can come to realise this and address such a painful and debilitating condition, then it paves the way for us all to follow suit. Thank you for sharing so candidly such a personal journey.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh January 31, 2018 at 12:32 am

    This explicit share about the understanding and awareness of how an energetic pattern can be flowing in the body so many years after an event and have a causative factor on physical as well as emotional symptoms is huge. It reflects so well that energy is an indisputable part of our life, experience and expression. And the long period of adopting unsuccessful solutions shows how unwise it is to ignore this fact.

  • Reply Matilda Bathurst January 31, 2018 at 6:14 pm

    The deep and steady intelligence of our bodies is a gift and one that we dismiss and/or ignore at our peril.

  • Reply Alison Valentine February 1, 2018 at 4:13 pm

    This blog and your previous one on abuse should be presented to the medical professions, you offer a detailed account of what happens to the body when we allow abuse into our body and don’t truly heal it. You gave me a better understanding of Eczema and why it is so itchy, it is the body’s way of showing there is something deeply unresolved in the body that we need to address and not ignore push to one side, and this is the tension we feel and the anxious we feel from choosing not to look at.

  • Reply Elizabeth Dolan February 1, 2018 at 6:05 pm

    Whatever medical condition we have the first step to healing it is to accept that fact that we have it. It is through the acceptance that things change.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh February 2, 2018 at 6:47 am

    Love, harmony, joy and oneness are the natural qualities of our essence. Anything less than that is the beginnings of illness and disease. In fact any issues we experience in life are seeded in a departure of the truth of the magnificence of all that we are.

  • Reply Carmel Reid February 2, 2018 at 4:04 pm

    ‘it was my body’s way of showing me what was true for me and what was not true.’ Our bodies al have their way of telling us that how we are living is not true, whether it be by skin condition, bloating, stomach aches, headaches, vomiting, even accidents and illnesses are all signals for us to learn from. In my case it is insect bites that show me the poison (energy) I let into my body with taking on negative thoughts.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart February 3, 2018 at 7:06 am

    I have never met anything like Universal Medicine or Serge Benhayon who so tenderly and astutely enables us to unearth the root cause of our conditions, that once exposed, empowers us to deeply cherish our bodies and begin to correlate our lifestyle choices with the quality of our health.

  • Reply Stephanie Stevenson February 3, 2018 at 7:45 pm

    It would be deeply inspiring and empowering for children to have confirmation of the language that the body speaks, so as to be able to feel and express from this throughout their lives.

  • Reply Gill Randall February 3, 2018 at 7:52 pm

    What a different way to look at healing any condition in the body! This gets to the core of the illness, therefore, when we are able to accept what the root cause is, it makes a huge change to the condition. It makes such sense.

  • Reply Susan Green February 4, 2018 at 6:32 am

    It is fascinating to read this blog. It has given me a much deeper understanding of sexual abuse and how symptoms can play out later in life. It is interesting how you came to your truth instantly with the Esoteric healing session. ‘the deep remorse that deep down I knew I had allowed this experience to happen.’ and the clarity with which you described this. I realise that we can all seek attention in many ways, each one has the same energy to it and yet will play out differently in the body depending on our choices. I sought the attention of my dad so I chose competitive swimming as a way to gain it so I could seek his approval. The swimming from a young age made my body hard. It is a different choice but it still disconnected me from my body and it had a huge impact on the way I felt about it as grew up.

  • Reply Sarah Flenley February 4, 2018 at 6:50 am

    Under all of our hurts and experiences is our essence, which remains untouched by all of life. It is truly God’s gift that no matter WHAT happens to us, our essence, our love, joy, stillness, harmony is there, patiently waiting for us to live it.

    • Reply Nico van Haastrecht February 9, 2018 at 3:21 pm

      Yes Sarah, we are so beautiful within irrespective of how we can look from the outer facade or experience our life, that beautful essence within always remains for all of us to one day to return to.

  • Reply Rebecca February 4, 2018 at 7:31 am

    Incredible, your story is a modern-day miracle and a testament to the fact that a cure is not the focus, but rather true healing – the clearing up of the energetic root cause that then delivers the physical improvement, one that is tied to our relationship with the energetics of how we live and not just physically fixing it.

  • Reply Gill Randall February 4, 2018 at 4:56 pm

    Years ago, when my son was young, he kept getting recurring giant boils on his skin. I didn’t understand what was happening at the time, and he had lots of courses of antibiotics which surpressed them, but then they returned after the course was finished. The doctor wanted to put him on a low dose of long term antibiotics which I refused, knowing they would not be good for the rest of his body. He was going through a stressful stage at school and once that was over, the boils stopped. I know now his body was simply clearing the ill energy.

    • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh February 6, 2018 at 5:50 pm

      Humanity would be much more supported if our medical system which is very good at reacting to and managing symptoms of ill health, also included the understanding of the energetic dynamics at play as is presented by Serge Benhayon.

      • Reply Chan Ly February 10, 2018 at 5:00 am

        I agree Golnaz. I feel if we only treating the physical symptoms of our illness and disease, and leave the energetic dynamics at play out of the equation, then we are only partly healing the body and hence, not truly healing the root cause.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart February 6, 2018 at 3:58 pm

    This blog brings such a deep understanding as to what lies beneath such a common illness. What is it inside of us that is quite literally itching to get out? The Universal Healing Modalities have always provided me with a genuinely safe space in which to go inward and really feel what is trapped in my body, all those uncomfortable and painful feelings that I have attempted to escape from in daily life, and find true resolution. And it is not about blaming anyone, but resuming responsibility for our knowing, awareness and choices and hence restoring true relationship with a power we abandoned long ago.

  • Reply Vicky Cooke February 8, 2018 at 5:51 am

    Truly inspiring. It just goes to show when we are willing to go there and have the true support healing can occur and what we hold onto can be released.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart February 8, 2018 at 3:34 pm

    One of the most inspiring and radical approaches to illness in terms of understanding and directly experiencing the way to feel and address the root of this malaise. All illness and disease are a symptom of a much deeper woe. Attempting to fix the symptom alone can never quell its message. Learning how to go within and feel what is caught deep within our matrix brings huge revelations that once honestly felt and released, enables the body to relinquish the message.

  • Reply Stephanie Stevenson February 8, 2018 at 4:45 pm

    Stopping to listen to the body and acting upon its communication begins to unravel all the complications that undermine true health and wellbeing.

  • Reply Annelies van Haastrecht February 8, 2018 at 5:20 pm

    It is not about fighting with what our body is showing us through illness and disease but accepting that it tells us that there is something to clear and heal from not living the love that we are. Like your said ‘Instead of seeing my skin as my enemy, I came to understand it was my body’s way of showing me what was true for me and what was not true.’

  • Reply Gill Randall February 8, 2018 at 5:54 pm

    The skin is an amazing organ for cleansing and healing, we all know this when we have something under the skin that erupts as a spot. The deeper energetic understanding taught by Serge Benhayon confirms that when we get to the root cause of any illness, be it emotional as well as physical, the body will clear it and release it. Thank you body.

  • Reply Mary February 8, 2018 at 11:51 pm

    Serge Benhayon said this
    ““The body is the marker of truth””
    I have I come to experience this to be true for my body, my body has always told me not to do something. Such as not to go out with someone I completely disregarded this advise, I did not listen and quite frankly paid the consequences of not listening. I feel there are always consequences for everything we do, it may not be an immediate but its like throwing a boomerang it comes back. This way of life hasn’t worked for me, so now I am living in a way that shows my body a lot more respect in that actually it does know more than me and is operating on a deeper lever beyond my conciseness. I know if I trust my feelings I wont go so far of plan.

  • Reply Nico van Haastrecht February 9, 2018 at 3:17 pm

    The beauty in healing our hurts with the healing modalities, as being presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, is that there is no way we can feel being guilty or a victim as it are the energies we are releasing, the energies we have let in because we wanted to not deal with the hurts we felt in one way or another and therefore are of our own dong. Only honesty is needed and a good dose of self love too.

  • Reply Carmel Reid February 9, 2018 at 8:45 pm

    I’ve never suffered from eczema so I can’t fully understand what it felt like, but you have described the horrors in detail in such a way that I can feel it through your words. I have all my life but especially in the recent past suffered from insect bites and occasionally still do. As with your eczema there is an energetic cause which in my case I am learning is about what energy I let into my body.Your healing process sounds amazing.

  • Reply Golnaz Shariatzadeh February 10, 2018 at 12:50 am

    It is easy to react to any issues in life especially if it is accompanied with discomfort or imposed limitation in any way. What I was failing to see for years was how we are part of a universe which allows free will and we can choose, yet there is also a self-regulating order, where any imprints against the natural qualities of e.g. love, harmony and truth will come round so that there is a possibility for a re-imprinting in the true qualities. This blog is a wonderful example of the choice to work with a potentially debilitating situation, and let it offer a deepening level of awareness, understanding, care and responsibility.

  • Reply Chan Ly February 10, 2018 at 4:49 am

    Wow, an incredibly healing journey Anonymous. Your willingness to go to the root cause of your condition and being open to heal what your body was showing you is amazing. Our body is always communicating to us and if we don’t listen to the messages, sometimes they gets louder and louder.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart February 10, 2018 at 4:43 pm

    Our bodies never lie. They are completely unable to cover up for us, however hard we try to stuff the problem back inside. Learning how to read and respond to these messages requires honesty and the willingness to look at all our choices, what lies behind them and what we have indulged in to fill the void where our love should be. Deeply challenging and uncomfortable at times, but pure gold when we go there and allow our bodies to express all we have clamped up inside them.

  • Reply Meg February 10, 2018 at 4:57 pm

    Wow – your story is amazing and I hope many people get to read it, I love the simple principles you approach your body and your skin with now – there’s a lot to learn in life every single day and it’s great to practice addressing what happens now and not let it linger or get buried so we have to deal with it at a later point, perhaps as it manifests as an illness or condition.

  • Reply Tricia Nicholson February 10, 2018 at 6:43 pm

    What an amazing healing and shift in your body celebrated and claimed so clearly with a known love and understanding empowered to you with the amazing support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Our body clearly is the marker of all truth for us all.

  • Reply HM February 12, 2018 at 2:03 am

    The body is a divine communicator. This sharing shows how sensitive your body is and how loudly it was telling you to let go of the hurts locked deep inside. With this comes an honesty and it seems this is one of the most important medicines we can have in our body – an honesty and transparency that invites the body to show us what is truly going on.

  • Reply Gill Randall February 14, 2018 at 5:46 pm

    What if all physical therapists were taught this on the first day of their training ..’Physical symptoms are first a manifestation of an energetic imbalance’. It would be a great start to understanding how the body is really speaking to us, rather than learning techniques to patch it up.

    • Reply Susan Green February 19, 2018 at 5:12 pm

      I loved this line too Gill, ‘Physical symptoms are first a manifestation of an energetic imbalance’. and understanding the energetic factor is the key here. So much of our energy is expended in solving and fixing with little relief but to approach our health from the energetic factor immediately heals the underlying cause.

  • Reply Rowena Stewart February 15, 2018 at 8:21 am

    The more we realise that the root causes of our ills stem from inside us, the more we will access a whole new awareness and language around disease and illness, one that seeks to restore connection to our bodies first in to enable it to release the burdens within.

  • Reply Monica Gillooly February 16, 2018 at 9:01 am

    This is a truly amazing blog, thank you for sharing your story. Where you have come from and where you are now are so different and it’s inspiring to see that we all can choose to live in a way that honours the truth that our bodies speak. And one gem (there are many) popped out at me ‘I know it is the reaction or energy that I have called in, that then makes me go for a particular food.’ something I will be observing in myself more closely, and a reminder than nothing happens in isolation we move to that point that leads to the point we’re at.

  • Reply Gill Randall February 17, 2018 at 1:43 am

    The intelligence of the body needs studying in much more detail, to educate us that it is possible and very powerful to live from the wisdom of the body instead of the head. The ‘corrections ‘from the body all have a deeper story to tell us when we understand this.

  • Reply Alison Valentine February 17, 2018 at 3:52 pm

    When we begin to understand that everything is connected and that nothing randomly happens in our lives we will begin to understand illness and disease. As you have shown Anon your eczema started to clear up once you were able to connect the sexual abuse you received in your childhood to the poison that was still in your body and running through your veins and showing up in your body as eczema. A truly powerful story that shows we can start to heal ourselves when we are able release the past that is still affecting us. “This healing session was showing me how these negative imprints and holding onto what is not true or loving in my body is just pure poison.”

  • Reply Susan Green February 17, 2018 at 5:46 pm

    ‘In time, I came to the understanding that my childhood sexual abuse was definitely a major cause of why I had such bad eczema.’ Amazing how the true aetiology was found once you began to make life about energy.

  • Reply Michael Brown February 19, 2018 at 7:11 am

    The world has so many cases similar to yours yet we have skirted around the edges of the answer. This blog just goes to show that what we are all searching for and funding research for is already well and alive.

  • Reply Rebecca Wingrave February 19, 2018 at 5:05 pm

    This quote is gold; “The body is the marker of truth” Serge Benhayon. From my lived experience this is utterly true, my body is constantly showing me how I am living – there is no hiding this simple fact.

  • Reply Mary February 21, 2018 at 7:08 am

    I have found for myself that the philosophies and teachings by Serge Benhayon have been a huge support in understanding depression and mental ill health in a way that was no offered by any other modality out there. That it is only by bringing understanding and settlement to our bodies can we have any true possibility to heal the hurts that we all carry with us from childhood into adulthood.

  • Reply julie Matson February 21, 2018 at 6:25 pm

    It makes sense that our bodies get to a point where it will do anything to rid its self of the abuse we and others have inflicted on it, even to the point of giving us serious health conditions. Thank you for sharing this Anon.

  • Reply fiona lotherington February 24, 2018 at 6:30 am

    Although the details vary, I have seen this kind of story in patients many times. They have tried ‘everything’ on offer with little to no relief from their condition. The steps laid out here so clearly are a guide for anyone with long term conditions. Develop awareness, be honest, understand the body is the marker of all truth and will show us what is unresolved or disharmonious in our body. This needs to be healed through our own awareness, responsibility and choice to allow the untouchable grace and beauty that we all are to re-emerge.

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